Thursday, December 11, 2014

Why I write

The reason for my recent surge of blog posts, is explained in this letter to my teacher at UVU. These blogs have been the result of a service assignment, however, I had this blog long before the assignment. Mostly I changed the direction and focus of my writing.

I did the service for the audience to my blog, or anyone that cares to read it. As I stated when I submitted the service opportunity to you, I have recently found writing my thoughts out very therapeutic. It got me thinking that we all have a lot of knowledge on certain things. We have our own point of view and that point of view is specific to each of us. I thought by sharing my point of view and experiences that have helped me reach higher and grow in my life could help others. So I have written several blogs on topics that have either helped me in the past or are currently helping me.

Did anything surprise me? Absolutely, for one, I realized that this service opportunity helped me more than it probably helped anyone that read my blog. But more importantly, I discovered something interesting. I wouldn’t necessarily say it surprised me, but it was somewhat of an epiphany of sorts. I was recently writing one of my blogs and towards the end got an urge to write differently, more honestly, but was afraid of how I would be judged if someone I knew read it (in fact, I’ve deleted a couple of my blog posts for being TOO open and honest about my personal life to the point that I felt uncomfortable about it), but in my head sometimes I feel like a different person. In fact, the inspiration for my blog name came from Benjamin Franklin. He wrote as Mrs. Silence Dogood so that he could publish his work in the New-England Courant. His brother James Franklin was the founder and publisher of the paper. Benjamin was only 16 years old, so in order to get his work published he would push the written letter under the new pen name of the middle aged Silence Dogood under the door of the printing shop every couple of weeks. I wonder if in his experience writing as Silence Dogood, that perhaps he was able to write more honestly or openly as opposed to if people knew it was him. Does that make sense?

                This experience DID reinforce what we are learning in this class, and I’ll tell you why. This is a technology class. And this service assignment was an opportunity to take advantage of technology oriented service. This is Web 2.0. I can interact with, and contribute to the content on the web. That is an advance in technology that just blows my mind, even now. What we are able to do is amazing. So I think this was very fitting for this class.

                The worst part of this experience was being pressed to write more than I felt inspired to write, which isn’t really that bad of a thing. I like to write naturally, when I feel the prompting or the inspiration. I imagine it is how J.K. Rowling felt after the surge of popularity her books gained. The best part has been the discovery I have made for myself, about myself, and the feeling of creating something that I hope others find value in. Or at least that it might help them in some way.


                I believe service was included in this course and is found valuable by UVU for the very things I have already stated. It adds so much to yourself as well as others. We gain knowledge and it pushes us to gain new understanding we might not otherwise achieve. 

Dear Me,

Do you ever stop and think of your younger self and wish you could go back and shake some sense into that younger you?

There is a movie called "Shawshank Redemption", maybe you've heard of it. If you haven't, stop reading this and go watch it now. Then come back and finish reading this, because I have some really great things to tell you about the character named Red from that movie. In Stephen King's novel which the film was based on, the character named Red is an Irish man with red hair. However, the role in the film eventually went to the actor Morgan Freeman (a decision which I am very glad the casting crew made). Morgan Freeman plays that character so well he makes me believe he could be a black Irishman. Red makes a statement in the movie towards the end of his prison sentence (which you now know because you just watched the film, right? Cause I don't want to spoil this for you, you've been warned).
After the council that determines if he gets paroled asks him if he knows what rehabilitated means this is what he says:

There's not a day goes by I don't feel regret. Not because I'm in here, because you think I should. I look back on the way I was then: a young, stupid kid who committed that terrible crime. I want to talk to him. I want to try to talk some sense to him, tell him the way things are. But I can't. That kid's long gone, and this old man is all that's left. I got to live with that. Rehabilitated? It's just a bullshit word. So you go on and stamp your form, sonny, and stop wasting my time. Because to tell you the truth, I don't give a shit.

So, yes, I feel like Red sometimes. Sometimes I want my younger self to know what's ahead of him. I think people that say they have no regrets haven't committed any act worthy of regret. That's just my opinion, but the word regret exists for a reason, because there are things in our lives, if given the opportunity to change, I'm sure we wouldn't do the same way, but then again we might not know what was better unless we made the choice in the first place. Something to ponder, but I think the greatest wisdom is found in climbing out of a hole we dug ourselves into in the first place.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

In the Eye of the Beholder


People often say that 'beauty is in the eye of the beholder,' and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder. This empowers us to find beauty in places where others have not dared to look, including inside ourselves.

Salma Hayek

I watched the movie "Shallow Hal" as a kid, and the message of that movie was not lost on me. In the movie, the main character has a trance put on him so that he sees a person's inner beauty reflected as their outer beauty. Towards the end the trance is removed but because he has seen the inner beauty of the people he has come to know he understands what it means to really appreciate someone's true beauty. 

We have all had experiences where the beauty of a person increases or decreases as we get to know who they really are. There have been some people I initially thought very attractive that as I got to know them they became less beautiful...almost physically too...which taught me that there is much more to how we determine beauty.